"Just touch my hand"

So live has been pretty busy!

Me and Kyle are talking about getting married which is SUPER exciting,

our only issue is money.

I don't make enough money at WHBM so I've been looking for a new job

or at least a second job.

I had two interviews with Hi-Health for a full time position

BUT

no call back....

I had an interview with Desert Schools Credit Union

No call back...

I had four interviews with Gordon's Jewelry

( I had to interview with all their managers)

got a call back but its only a temperay position....

And

I have an interview with Best Buy on Tuesday

hopefully I'll get a call back from them!

Yes i called Hi-Health and Desert Schools and left messages just never heard anything back "/

I honestly have NO idea how couples live!

I mean i don't have many bills and neither does kyle

yet even with him working full time and me either getting a full time job or working two jobs to make it full time i have no clue how we will make enough to live.

We did happen to find an apartment we love!

Its right down the road from where we live now

Its a two bed, two bath, two storey apartment

in the building it has three floors so our first floor would be the buildings second floor

this would have our kitchen, living room and washer/dryer

then our second floor (the buildings third floor) would be the two bedrooms and bathrooms

it has a HUGE walk in closet

comes with all the kitchen utilities, and washer and dryer

they are also offering free water, sewage, and trash

for only $680 a month!

Hopefully it will all work out because after lots and lots and lots and lots of praying

i know kyle is the man I'm meant to be with, he is my true love

I don't know how i lived before he came into my life...

oh well i know if everything is meant to be it will work out

So with us luck!!!

Hope you all have been having a great months



A rollercoaster ride?!

Life seems to be like a roller coaster ride,

Its has its ups and downs

For some reason I've been on a down hill ride.

I keep getting sick, I get the worst cramps in my stomach at night,

I keep throwing up, I get MASSIVE headaches,

no matter how long or how much i sleep I'm always am exhausted,

and I get so upset over the dumbest things.

Ive been to close to 20 doctors, had over 40 different tests done

and guess what?!

No one knows whats wrong.

Its so frustrating!

I'm so sick of being sick,

I'm so over all the tests,

and

I'm so done not knowing whats wrong!

Ok now that my anger has be slapped onto the page I oddly feel a little better :]

On a good note,

Kyle is at drill this weekend!

I hate when he isn't around because I get super bored,

and really lonely

BUT

when he comes home we are always that much closer

and

while he is out there he always tells me how much he misses me,

it helps me know he really does love me :]

ALSO I have a plan for this weekend!

I'm going to deep clean my room,

I mean pull apart my closet,

wash my walls,

clean my carpets,

and

get rid of a whole bunch of stuff!

BECAUSE,

hopefully with in the next year me and kyle want to get married

we have been looking at apartments,

and houses

so we know what we like and where we want to live!

It makes me sooooo excited!

Well that's whats been going on my life since the last time I blogged

My goal:

Blog once a week, since i don't keep a journal my blog is now going to be my journal

Hope you all have a lovely day!

P.S. I am NOT looking forward to Valentines Day, I think its a dumb holiday.



Unexpected

I had a every eye opening experience today.

It all started when I woke up this morning at 8:35am to a text from my mom saying,

" Call me ASAP, its about aunt Niqui"

(Niqui or Monquie is my dads brothers wife)

So after calling my mom I found out that she had a stroke and was in surgery.

No big deal right?!

WRONG

Two hours later i got another call from my mom informing me that my aunt had the surgery and was non-responsive and that she was going to die it was just a waiting game till she passed on.

"What the heck?!"

My aunt is 51 years old in extremely good heath, she ate right, worked out, and had no medical issues.

After arriving at the hospital we were informed of the story of what happened that goes like this:

Around 11:00am Sunday morning My aunt and uncle were getting ready to go clean out their rental house. My uncle went out to load up the truck while my aunt went to get the cleaning supplies.He was outside for maybe 5min. When he went back into the house to find my aunt face down on the kitchen floor. She was not responding to her name, tapping, anything.

My uncle grab a flash light and one of her eyes was dilated the other wasn't.

He took her to the Scottsdale Osborn Hospital

At 11:30 she had a cat scan were they found a blood clot in her brain which caused her to have a massive stroke. So to hopefully get ride of the clot they gave her an EXTREME blood thinner and placed her in surgery.

at 12:45 she came out of surgery. The surgery was a success.

1pm they did another cat scan and found that a massive bleed was in her brain from the blood thinner. Causing extreme pressure on her brain.They then placed her back into surgery to relieve the presser. They cut out a piece of her skull. After the surgery they did texts and found out that the left side of her brain was not pulsing (your brain pluses as your heart beats) with her brain not pulsing they called her brain dead and non-recoverable.

What they found out had happened to her was she had a dease called Fibro Muscular Displaycia.

This is found in 1-1,000 women starting at the age of 45. Fibro Muscular Displaycia creates fibers to build in the muscles. Well Niqui had this but in her crauted artery. This is 1-1,000,000 people get it in their carotid artery. FMD is Non-detectable, non-preventable, and non-treatable. The best way to explain what happens when someone gets FMD is like the 101 being closed down to one lane and the blood clot is like a semi-truck. It goes through her carotid artery and creates MAJOR discretion and the clot to get into her brain.

So as of right now we are waiting 72 hours for her brain to stop swelling so the doctors can asses the damage and figure out what of her organs can be donated.

This came unexpected. Niqui was such a wonderful person. So kind, loving, beautiful and giving. She always thought of everyone first, and at this time of the year it makes me take a step back even more and look at my life. Life is to short and you never know what will happen. Live life to the fullest and take NOTHING for granted!

She will be forever loved and forever missed.

OoOpS!

With all the crazy-ness happening last week I never got the chance to get online!

It all started with my aunt Carol, uncle Chau, and two little cousins Alex and Annie coming into town!

Then Thanksgiving with over 43 people at our house!

All the guys went paint balling thanksgiving morning,

then around 2 was lunch!

Lots of turkey, ham, potato's, rolls, green beans, stuffing, cranberry sauce, and of course dessert!!

Lots of yummy food!

Then Kyle and I went to his house to have dinner with his family!

I was wayyyy to full to eat to much so I just ate some deviled eggs.

After Cameron Farr and his girlfriend Corrine come over and we just chilled, laughed, and talked.

Then BLACK FRIDAY!

Yes, i admit i went out on Black Friday,

Although I'm not crazy enough to get up super early!

I got up around 5am and was out the door at 6am!

First stop?!

Bass Pro Shop!

no idea why that was our meeting spot buttt it was.

I did end up finding a couple cheap shirts for kyle!

While we slept in and got ready for the day my crazy mom was at Joann's at 4am!

She did get a cricket!

OH man how I LOVE this thing!

I have played with it everyday since buying it!

If you don't know what a cricket is, its a machine where you up in a little card and it can cut out any shape that is on the card, in any size!

Its soooooo cool!

After Bass Pro was OLD NAVY!!!

I got two super cute long sleeve sweaters, two over sweaters and a pair of pj pants!

Sadly after that i had to work 10am - 6pm

looooong day.

But since i missed a few days ill just pick back up from where i started off

Day Eight:

I have more memories that make me laugh then pictures

but

lucky on Wednesday night we went to Native New Yorker for wings.

They are my uncle Chau's favorite wings and there are no Natives in California

So while waiting for out food me and my cousins made mustaches!!

Oh yea!

ha ha we are super cool!

I had a FANTASTIC thanksgiving!

Hope you all did too!

seven 7 seven 7

My most treasured item hmmm?
Well I love many things
and
Need many things
butttt
what I treasure?!

This is a tough one




My family!

They may annoy the CRAP outta me but I still love them
simple as that.

numero 6

So I had to take an extra day to think about this one.
After thinking about I decide I wouldn't trade places with anyone.
Not even for a day!
I love my life.
It was given to me for a reason and I am grateful for it.
I have learned lots of things and still want to learn more!
I love who I am,
What I have done,
What I can do,
and what I will do!

So for that reason I wouldn't trade that for anything!
Yes it has taken me a loooong time to figure out who I am and what i want
thats why I live life day by day
and
enjoy the little things each day!

For example: I found a SUPER cute nail polish at Ulta in the 5 for 5 deal
so a $1 for a fantastic nail polish

Life is good

The glass is ALWAYS half full

5

A favorite memory?!

JUST one!!

I don't have one single favorite memory i have lots!

Although i have lots of favorite memories with.....

 

Kileen or Ki for short! I do have lots of fun crazy memories with my cousin

This girl is my best friend, she makes me laugh, makes me think and makes me me!

Even though we hated each other in the beinging she is now my best friend! I love her to death!

I also am making lots of fun memories with KYLE!!!

He is the love of my life!

I miss him every second I'm not with him!

He makes me so happy

that's all that matters in my life right now...

being happy!